Stupidity

Today, I just realized that I have to be the stupidest person in the whole wide world. I thought I would have learnt my lesson from the last time, but I just broke my own heart again.

A friend of mine was facing some problems. When she called up crying, I just listened even though I have no idea what she was saying cause she was crying and speaking at the same time. Anyway, conclusion is I still don't know what's going on as she said she's not comfortable in sharing with me. It's ok with me. I'm not those kind of people who will force it out of you even though you don't want to share. I just listen. If you want to say, I'll listen. If you don't want to say, no hard feelings as well.

Anyway, next day, this friend suddenly messaged me saying that she would like to stay overnight in my house that day. I was shocked but I told her no problem. If my friend/s need a place to stay, of course no problem. Immediately, I went to clean up my room, mopped the floor, prepared the bed, pillow and blanket for her and awaited her arrival cause I know she just had a hard day yesterday. Who knows, at night she called, saying that she can't make it and will come tomorrow as she will be with her boyfriend that night. Fine with me. The next day, I didn't dare to go anywhere in fear that she may just come anytime and there will be no one at home. The whole family stayed at home awaiting her arrival and end up, she's not coming again. Where will she be going?? Her boyfriend place lor. What the heck. Suddenly I feel like my house is like a hotel. Only when her boyfriend don't want to take her then come my place. What the heck man.

I'm just so damn pissed. Everytime I go all the way out for my friends, I end up geting hurt. Even though I have no idea what's going on, I just welcomed her, and prepared for her a comfortable environment. But I end up feeling like a complete total idiot. Forget it man. I'm stating it right here now. I'm never going to go all the way out for anyone again. Forget it. So, what did I do? 1, I went and put back all the pillows everything. 2, I made my whole room messy again. If she wants to stay, I will only prepare when she is in my house, wanting that spot to sleep.

So, I found out today that I got an illness called stupidity.