Unfair...

Forgive me if I seem angry coz I am.

I have been at lvl 41 the whole entire day of yesterday, up to now. Yesterday, as soon as yh log in, I have been partying with her. While she fights her slimes, I fight green mush for her to lvl. The only time in between to fight my own things is when she goes off and repot. Been trying to find the fastest way to lvl today. Fought stone golems and died in the end which decrease my EXP further. Went into the dungeon to fight cold eye and drakes. Their spawn is pathetic. And I'm only 6% away frm lvl 42 but I got to go and find 50 firewood for yh to do quest. This is easy. I finally went to her, and she suddenly disappear. She change chn. I change chn and she change location. I went to her location, and she went up higher....Grr... nothing to say.

Lucky people. Got people party them, bring them go fight, let them lvl fast. Reason: They new, ther are newbies. Like I started immediately at lvl 40 like that. Who took my hand and bring me go fight green mush when I'm lvl 11 so I can leech? No one. Who fought green mush while I only fight slimes so I can get EXP when I'm lvl 15? No one. Who help me go do quests? No one. Who teach me step by step where to buy things, where to hunt, where to go etc? No one. Did anyone help me play so I can go frm lvl 1 to lvl 8? No one. I did everything by myself, I learnt everything by myself. And I got to where I am today by myself.

Yeah, I "Pro". Then ppl lvl 60+ call what? Gods? It won't be surprising if they catch up with me one day. Maybe one day they have to let me leech. They must give me items. They must fight monsters which are so pathetic in EXP that every 3 they kill, they only get 0.01%. And the least those monsters can do, is to drop me something good. Something worthy. Nothing. Sometimes, I really wonder, why is it that even in a virtual world, in a computer world, are things also so unfair?

Whatever...

I am so very disappointed. How many times have I helped her along the way. Now all I am asking is that she accompany me to school to study and she's reacting like I asked her to take drugs or commit suicide. Thousands of excuses...what "good" friends I have.

True, she's got her distinction to take and I've got my shit to take right?!? People got distinction and I've got a pile of rubblish. Nothing to say. Anyway, loneliness is something I've gotten used to although I don't like it. Maybe I'm destined to be alone all my life, and I don't give a damn. It's a good time now to say the "F" word but it's a good thing I don't or the whole entry will be filled with that word.

Anyway, Being forced has never made anyone happy. So, from now onwards, She'll go her way and I'll go my way. She'll pick her distinctions and A's, while I get my rubbish and shits. She'll go with her sweet dopey huge group of friends and I'll go with my own shadow. Complain to the rest, tell the rest, I don't care. Tell them I got attitude, tell them I'm acting like Joanna. Tell them I'm trying to waste your precious time and trying to rid you of your distinctions and A's. Be the poor little, tiny, innocent never guilty girl that you have always been and I'll be the big,baddie,meanie fellow I have always been. Tell them say I'm trying to force you to do something that you don't want for my own happiness. Whatever... I no longer care. Don't care if I die tomorrow or whatever. Whatever, I no longer give a damn.

Hi, research methods results came out in the afternoon (finally!!!). I'm glad to say I didn not fail and got a C. My Empress got an A. Trust me, I'm not talking to her liao ;p

I just heard that one of my friend, Jian Hao, confessed to his mother that he is a christian. Naturally, his mother was very unhappy. Though he didn't say that he was sad, I know how he feels. The only difference is that I lack the courage to say. I know my mother. If she just chase me out of the house, that's consider light. For heavy penalty, link these words together.
Anger-> Knife-> Casket-> Heaven.

Sometimes, I just don't understand where the whole problem lies. Why can't they accept? Since young, I knew... I knew I didn't belong in the temple. My whole life, I've long to enter the church. My first time was when my (one and only christian) uncle got married. After that time, the only church I went to was the Nativity church near my sec school. Over time in poly, I sneaked into New Creation Church a couple of times, and that's all. I have never felt any "feeling/s" in the temple but the church is so different. How nice if I was born into a christian family. One who is born into a christian family will never understand. Never.

Maybe one day, I may gather the courage. Maybe one day, when I am finally independent, I will say. Then, I will not need to worry about anything. But deep inside, I have a wish... only God knows and I know. And that may be the real reason why I have not said...

Father, I have not forgotten the dream you blessed me with that night. When the time finally arrives, we will all kneel infront of you and tears of gratitude and happiness will be shed, our hearts soaring and filled with longing...for that day will come, in your time. Amen.

19/10

Exams are coming but I just don't seem to be studying so much...what a naughty girl right?!

Anyway, BCLS theory test results came out, and I passed. Finished my BCLS practical yesterday and I passed too. Thank God. Hurt my little finger and my knees are like aching from all that "Re-sus". Research method presentation is over for me too, so, I am kinda free. Yeah :)

Did a debate last week, and it was kinda terrifying but then, got over it. Oh yes, got the best speaker award in my grp.

Better go now. See you laterz.

Another Day

I just went and take a look at my bio practical and I got a C. 60-65%. Not too bad for someone who studied last minute actually maybe didn't even study much. Oh well, thank God I passed...so afraid I will fail... Sarah happy lor...Got B+ :p. Hope I can pass my few other papers...

~5/10/2005 - 6/10/2005~

Left quite sudden the last time didn't I? Coz must rush for lecture. Well, glad to say everyone pass their second attempt for those who must retake. Went specially back to school for moral support for those retaking. Must have been out of my mind.

Anyway, I really can't stand someone now....to the extend where I don't even want to talk to her anymore. Not even a glance. It's a long story...really long. But no choice, she just refuses to join someone else. Haiz. Don't want to talk...later at night sleep also dream about her *yucks*

Yesterday, went to seoul garden with char, yung hwui, sarah, yi wei, wang qiong and jian hao. Never realized how "naughty" yiwei can be until yesterday. And poor jian hao, let us "bully" until...haiz...

Got a debate and research methods ICA next week, BCLS theory and practical next week monday... wonder when the holidays are coming...

Re~Lax

Yoz, I finish my assessment for my clinical on Friday. Thank God I passed and thank God I got SC Insulin and IV INFUSION PUMP. Easy man. Was so worried that I would get assessment for lungs and thorax. Got to get going for lecture now. Bye~

Tired man...

Yoz...Me.

Tired man. Tuesday, finished my Med-Surgical presentation. Yesterday, I sat for 2 tests. My Bio practical and clinical theory. Tomorrow, I got another 2 tests. Research methods and my clinical practical. It's driving me crazy. Haiz. All the test all cramp in one week, I think I'm going to faint liao. Tomorrow if I fail my clinical practical, I think I better die. Oh man, hate tests. Now, I don't know what's better. Hospital or school. In my opinion, I think holiday is the best.

Later still got Lab, and I haven't study my research and my Lungs and thorax assessment is gone case... God bless me...

One fine Sunday....

One fine sunday, I went to suntec city with my family and we ate at Pearl River Palace. The food there was marvellous. But it was really expensive. Nevertheless, we had a good time. While on the way to Carrefour, we stop by Courts. And just there, I saw sarah. After a quick hi-bye, we left. After shopping around, my brother made a fuss and said that he wanted to go and watch "Charlie and the Chocolate factory". So we went up to the 3rd floor and just there, I asw charmaine and her mum. After another quick hi-bye, we parted. After enquiring on the seats, we decided to watch on tuesday.

We finally carried on with our shopping in Carrefour. Mum bought something from OTO. Then while hanging around the VCDs area, We met my aunty. After some chit-chatting, we parted. After shopping, we went to OG that is near sim-lim square, and shop there. After shopping, we left for my grandmother house.

In conclusion, that was what happened in my own one fine sunday.
(Dear teacher, pls give me high marks coz I try my beary best liao. thank you ;)

A little report on my horoscope...

Capricorn, the tenth Sign of the Zodiac, is all about hard work. Those born under this Sign are more than happy to put in night after night of full-time studying, realizing that it will likely take a lot of those days to get straight A's. That's no problem, since Capricorns are both ambitious and determined: they will get there. Life is one big project for these folks, and they adapt to this by adopting a businesslike approach to most everything they do. Capricorns are practical as well, taking things one step at a time and being as realistic and pragmatic as possible. The Capricorn-born are extremely dedicated to their goals, almost to the point of stubbornness. Boy, those victories sure smell sweet, though, and that thought alone will keep Capricorns going.

It's the Goat which symbolizes Capricorns, and an apt mascot it is. Goats love to climb to the top of the mountain, where the air is clear and fresh. In much the same way, Capricorns want to get to the top of their chosen field so that they can reap the benefits of success; namely fame, prestige and money. Getting to the top isn't always a walk in the park, however, so it's likely that Goats will ruffle a few feathers along the way. These folks can indeed be domineering, even egotistical, on their route to the top. They'll tell you it's part of being a leader with bright new ideas (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Capricorns are industrious, efficient, organized and won't make a lot of waves. They are scrupulous with details and adopt a rather conventional posture in business and in life. These folks feel best playing it safe, since this is a fail-safe way to get to the top--eventually. Thankfully, Capricorns are patient, too, and are happy to wait for their ship to come in. The flip side to this staid behavior is that Goats can become quite unforgiving of those who aren't as diligent or ambitious as they are. Capricorns need to remember that they do need allies along the way, ambitious or otherwise. In any case, once Capricorns receive the recognition and social status they so fervently crave, it's likely that all will be forgiven.

Capricorn is ruled by the Planet Saturn. In ancient Roman mythology, Saturn was the father of many of the gods. Consider him top dog, if you will, and then you'll see a parallel to Capricorns. Those born under this Sign also want to be the top dog, and they're smart enough to know that the title won't simply be handed to them. Caps are happy to work for it, and luckily they possess enough discipline and sense of responsibility to get them there. Capricorns tend to be mature and are amply blessed with common sense, two more qualities which help their success-driven endeavors. With any kind of luck (make that considerable work), Caps will find themselves on that top step, but they should also remember those who have helped them on their quest. They are traditional (but not quite the button-down stiffs some would suggest) and somewhat inhibited, prompting others to wonder if they can ever enjoy success and its rarefied air. Rest assured, these folks will be smiling inside.

The Element associated with Capricorn is Earth. There's no surprise there! Caps aren't interested in wild ideas or round-the-world dreams. They would much rather stay put and get to work. Remember, these are the businesspeople of the Zodiac, so in their sensible and economical way, they'll get up every morning and see to it that their job is well done. While Caps can occasionally get a bit materialistic and greedy (hey, everyone needs a few perks), they are far too dignified and practical to get carried away. Plus, they love tradition and reserve and want to appear polite and friendly.

Capricorns at rest (yes, there is such a thing) enjoy leisurely sports such as golf and croquet--so long as they have a chance to win! Playing with a crew is also nice, since it brings to mind their beloved workplace. Team colors for a Capricorn are likely to be earthy brown and khaki, much like the relaxed slacks they like to wear. Sports-bound Caps also need to watch their teeth and knees, and they shouldn't be too daring, lest they break some bones. When it comes to love, Capricorns are ever devoted and never emotive.
The great strengths of the Capricorn-born are their willingness to work hard and their determination to succeed. Their ambition is boundless, yet they are cautious, responsible and always play fair. That's why their successes are all the more sweet.

Think you see that in me??Hmm...

My love colour quiz...

If love were Chinese food, your fortune cookie might say, "No need to look for happiness. It's right there next to you." Storge (which comes from the Greek word for family) love is characterized by familiarity and affection. According to John Allan Lee, yellow types would be happy to have a solid, supportive relationship and value this far more than physical or emotional intensity. Yellow types often find themselves falling in love with a best friend or a family friend without realizing it. Has love ever snuck up on you? Keep an eye out for Cupid, he's likely to get you when and where you least expect it. Yellow roses symbolize friendship, so who knows, if you look out the window, you might have a garden-full of them in you and your beloved's shared backyard.

Haha, think so??

I shouted....

Yozzy, It's me me.

Here in E-plaza waiting for sarah to finish her thingy. Really dilly-dally.

Boring friday tml. Need to come to school early at 11am and then study until 8pm. No fair. I'm suppose to be out having fun instead of staying in school from 6-8pm with a teacher that hardly knows his work. Frankly speaking, base on the way he teach, I can take over his job too.

Project work keeping coming like crazy. 4 groups, 5 groups then now 8 groups. Crazy man. Wonder if the teacher have any work to do. I think, they think that we students have about 48hours each day. And they also think that we are the "worms in their stomach" and that we are suppose to know perfectly well what they want. Really hate it when people explain half and then leave the next half for you to guess. Maybe they should retake 1026 on effective communications.

It's 5:13pm now. Time to get going. Got to get sarah off her butt and start moving. See ya.

Short and to the point...

No mood for long grandmother story so I'll make it short and sweet.

Went k-box today with char,sarah,yung hwui, noel and darren. Along the way there, I received a sms from christina saying she broke up with her boyfriend. Being not really close to her, I didn't ask much and just said "God bless". I truly hope God will direct a path for them. I think they have been together for 2 years and I just feel it's really bad if they do split. And I saw outside the church, a banner put "Love always comes with a 5-letter word" bet you don't know what that is...It's Jesus. A relationship without Jesus is hopeless. Anyway, I'll pray for them. That's all folks...

Oh yes, pray for my finger that got cut by that stupid Ampule...Hate that thing. My finger still hurts till now so, pray that I don't have to chop it off. Ok, that's all folks.

Yoz

I feel like it's raining in my room. Cause that stupid air-con is leaking and I now have 2 pails under that leaking air-con instead of one.

Studied till 8pm today. First time. Maybe next semester studied till 9... Anyway, Darren is sick. Seem like he developed high fever after donating blood (maybe he donated more WBC than RBC) anyway, he went to the GP with noel and got a jab from the doctor. Then later, Poor, little, sick Darren got some allergic reactions to the jab the doctor gave. Swollen eyes and vomitting of blood...tsk tsk. And still come for lab lesson from 6-8pm, when I think he should have just admit to the hospital. Well, he went to the hospital after school, hope he gets well soon.

Had my first bible study with christina. Got 'homework' you know?! Must memorize John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life." Amen to that. But I sincerely hope that there will be no exam...

Changed my bloggy skin yesterday, all thanks to sarah. I was really happy to give Isabella her b'day present cause don't really like carrying it around but she returned me my psycho textbook, end up, must carry a even heavier thing around...

Alright, that's all from my boring day. Hope yours is much better than mine. God Bless!!

Miss me?

Here I am, in the comfort of my own room, with the air-con blasting and LEAKING water like nobody's business...

Well, went for my first ever prayer meeting and was slightly late. It felt kinda odd at first cause I have never been to one but I do have to say it's fun. Jo, maybe can consider doing it everyday . Lots of praying and singing etc.

Went for movie "War of the worlds". It was great though I've seen it before.

Oh yeah, Jian Hao got a very special gift from God today. The gift of tongues. Congrats man. Now that you've got it, remember to praise God with this special gift of yours. It works wonder.
Frankly speaking, I have not been praying at all for the past few weeks until today. Cause of something my aunt said...I think about 3 months ago. In the past, I would pray every night before bed time, without fail. Then, I asked for tongues and I got it. I was really, really happy and proud. And I went and told my aunt, and she went to tell my one and only christian uncle. I saw her 2 weeks later and she told me that my aunty (My christian uncle's wife) can speak in tongues, but everytime she speak in tongues, she understands what she is speaking. And my uncle said that what I am speaking may not actually be the "real" tongues that is granted by God, and it may actually be a language from the devil.

I tried and explain to her that sometimes, certain people will understand what they say but mostly, tongues is a language spoken by the spirit and so on...I mean, I've only been to church twice. I know about all these through the cds I bought from new creation church. She wasn't trying to mean any harm when she told me what my uncle said but well, you just know when someone don't really believe what you said.

After that, I got a World War 3 going on inside my head. Sometimes,I decide that It is the REAL thing but sometimes no. I mean, people will query how I got tongues cause I prayed on my own and not in church etc. And the custom was that someone had to pray for you to get it. Well, up till today, I believe that I got it because I wanted it very,very, very badly. Don't ask me why. I just wanted it and I was prepared to go all out for it. Maybe people won't understand how badly I wanted it, but well, I know. Anyway, I let fear got the better of me. I stopped praying in tongues and soon, I completely stop praying. You may say "Stupid" but my mentality at that time was " I would rather not pray then to pray to the devil." But unlike the rest of the problems, I was constantly thinking about it. It was always on my mind, day and night, dawn till dusk, without fail...and the urges to go to church were so strong. Cause I needed guidance, I needed answers. And, I know I will find what I'm looking for there. "God is everywhere," you may say. But for 'kuku' christians like me, the first source was church.

Anyway, I'm going to go into my famous "Heck-care" attitude and keep on praying. Because I know, only God is worth praising and worshipping. And besides, fear is a sin, worry is a sin. I've got more than enough sins each day so, I'll just forget about fear and worry.

I'm Roasted...

Hi there, Long time no post...

Well, have been really busy. ISP ended yesterday. 3 whole weeks just pass like that. Was posted to a surgical ward in TTSH again. Got to say that the staff in this ward is better than the previous. Haiz... Going back to the previous ward for 4 whole weeks...OH MY GOODYNESS!!! Well, I'll survive...I hope.

Went for a picnic with some of my classmate today in East Coast Park. Woke up at 7am. Was really feeling kinda angry cause I should be at home catching up on my beauty sleep that I lack so much. But it was fun. We rented a few bikes, play around and joked around stuff like that. Just a little bit of cycling for me and I got sun burnt. Only realized that at home. I'm like a piece of char siew now... but anyway, it's only on the face and my lower arm so, I guess I'm a partial char siew. Well, very tired liao so gotta go. Bye.

~Aching~

It's me...had a very tiring day today.

Really shopping day. Went out with Char,Gen, Sarah, Christina and Hui Juan. We met at 12pm at Orchard MRT station (Suppose to meet at 11pm but then I was late. Sarah had to wait for me at compass point while I was so busily searching for a pair of shoes to match my outfit. Not sure how many times I left the house and went back again to change my shoes. So, in conclusion, we were 45mins late.)

Went to eat at Marche then went shopping at Heeren. Took lots of neoprints though I look ugly in them. Then Gen got picked up by a hairstylist in Toni & Guy and sat inside there for like 2 hours and we went and walked around in Heeren for 2 hours too. She looked really sexy after the haircut in my opinion but still the same, old Gen.

Then we walked to Far East and shop there. Then Char's mum asked her to go and get some music books and we rushed down from Far East cause the shop closes at 7.30pm. Then we slowly float back to Takashimaya and I went to buy my fishcake or else my mum will use me as the fishcake. Went to eat that fantastic fish & chips and we went looking for Sarah's cd shop. But that shop was gone and was replaced with a clothing shop. The clothes look pretty nice but mostly on the expensive side. We took a couple of pieces and tried on here and there and left the shop without buying ;p

Really tiring day and all I bought was a necklace, bracelet and 3 Archie Comics. Really is very little comparing to what sarah bought...lots of shirts and stuffs. But I'm just glad I bought Archie comics.

Miss Me??

Hihi, Miss me? I know, I know you do...It has been awhile since I last blog but don't get too attached to me, I'm not those emotional type so...well, you get the idea ;)

Exams have just finish about 2 days ago. And just when I start to get the hang of my boring life in books, it's over. Still feeling alittle weird that I don't have to study and go to school. Even though it's weird, I'M LOVING IT!!!

Lots of shows, games, and more interesting life waiting for me *does the happy dance* Lots of events and activities for me to do *does the happy dance around my room* No more studying amd boring books *does the happy dance around the whole singapore*...

LaLaLa...It's getting late...LaLaLa...I gtg...LaLaLa...See u around...LaLaLa...That's all.

(P.S. I got a hair cut and no, I'm not crazy and Yes, I'm still alright...LaLaLa)

I LOVE YOU Lord

I love you lord. I love you. I thank you for coming into my life and taking control of my everything. And I thank you for the gifts of tongues. Though it left me feeling shaky and pain my left shoulder. But it's still wonderful. Ok, don't feel like typing long here so All the best and God bless.

Question Asked and he answered. Amazing!!!

Yoz...me here...

Was watching the Killer Wave program earlier. And my mum said that the local people noticed something. The temples and buddha statues are all still standing while houses around the temples are completely destroyed. Of course, she had a motive for telling me that but I heck care lah. What I didn't understand then was why didn't he destroyed those as well. Why leave them standing? Why don't he show the world who is supreme all at once?? Then suddenly that little "voice" in my head said something. It was a little confusing but I get the whole meaning now. He wants people to go to him not because they HAVE to but because they WANT to. If his children only have eyes for him, it wouldn't matter if he had left all the statues standing in the world cause we want him...And acknowledge him as the one and ONLY Almighty God and nothing else. I'm not sure if you agree with me but that's what the little "voice" in my head said. I know it sounds weird but I know I heard it.

Anyway, I'm just happy that I'm hearing the music from my blog again. At last it's working again. Well, God bless

Howdy!!!

Yo Yo,

It's me again. I know, if's I don't update leh, sarah is going to K-I-L-L me. I'm too young to die so, update lor. Hmm, let me try and think of something to say. Frankly speaking, I am crazy today, no idea why I am so wild so all I can say is that I'm crazy. Bouncing here and there, being dragged out to the toilet by sarah cause I said the wrong thing earlier...lucky she never K-I-L-L me there. Sorry if you wonder why I keep saying sarah want to kill me cause a few nights ago, I had a dream. In that dream, sarah was chasing me with a knife in her hand, wanting to kill me. In the end, I had no choice, I took her knife and slice off her hand. So, maybe I am terrified of her after the dream...hehe. Okay, I'm going to stop here. See you soon :)

A mouth was given to you for 1 main purpose...A-S-K

Hi, it's me.

Went to school for group meeting which lasted for less than 30mins. Well, what can I say, I go straight to the point. Well, Jannah was saying that after I become leader, we like very slack on our presentation. Frankly speaking, I really lack creativity cells. But anyway...I know where my strength lies and where my weakness lies. But one thing that really pissed me off was that Jian hao was going out with Joanna and Jihan. I think finally, I know what kind of 'friend' I am to him. One good thing about blogspot is that he doesn't know I got another blog so, I can feel free to vent my frustration here. Stupid excuses he give when sarah asked him "I thought she going out with you..." Hello?!? Do you know something that has an "A" ,a "S" ,and a "K"?!? Try figuring it out. How would u feel if your group of friends go out together and never ask you along?? At least they could have ask right?!? Well, not a single one asked. And to think all along I was blaming myself and asking myself why did we split up? And finally, I got my answer... They got back together...it wasn't my fault entirely then but it's not my fault now. And Hayati even had to ask me "You not going?". What was my answer? "No one told me" Then I excused myself and went to call sarah. Cause I know if I don't excuse myself, I will strangle somebody.

Lesson of the day : You got a problem with me, say it in my face. Even though my looks can kill you, I'll make sure you live to tell your problem about me before killing you with my looks and words.
(P.S. Thank Goodness for a secret blog ;)

Blessed is the lord...he has shower my life with so much blessings...I love him :)

Hi, it's me again.

I was reading my friendster testimonial just now, and I really miss my secondary school friends. And I was really blessed by the Almighty to be able to meet them and to know them. Just reading the testimonial brings a smile onto my face. Now I really wonder how they know me that well...haha. And I wonder now if my poly classmates know me that well...haha. Anyway, I believe that every single person I meet and become friends with is not by my will but by God's will. The way one human can meet another human and become friends and maybe even more is something that I have always believe to be handled by a much higher power. And congrats stephanie and weishan for passing. God bless :)

My heart is bursting... I can't stand it anymore...I got to say it...I love God!!!

I love God... Oh, my lord, my saviour...my dream come true. I had such a wonderful time today during service...my heart just can't stop bursting with joy and happiness after that. Praise to you Lord.

Only God know when I can go back to church again. Though it may be some time later, I really treasure the time I had. I just felt so special sitting there, singing out his praise and listening to Pastor Prince. Oh bless Pastor Prince, he is such a good pastor...Amen. Ohh...I'm crazy with God...I just keep thinking of him. I'm going to go crazy...Yes, I am. But I'm really Happy. I'm so happy I forgiven Jian Hao for pissing me off yesterday. My Lord, My saviour...Amen.

(P.S. I LOVE GOD!!!)

What a bumpy day...

Hihi,
went to watch ' hide and seek' today with them. Come out, come out wherever you are...haha. Oh yes ladies, we got an appointment at 2:06 A.M. Don't forget ;) haha. Well, had fun then at AMK MRT station, I slipped and fell down while talking to yung hwui about the movie... I think it's best not to show my face around AMK station for awhile. And now, my bottom is still sore and painful...it really is a blessing to be able to sit down without it hurting. Anyway, got laughed at the whole day by them so... Well, that's all the exciting things that happened to me today. That's all folks. Oh yes "Come out, Come out wherever you are"

Filled with trust,love and faith for the lord...

Hi, So, what's new?

Well, bought a book "Heaven is so real" which really changed my life. And I also bought a bible recently. It's sad that I can only read the bible late at night but it's ok with me. Of course, it's more of a mystery to me about most of the verse I read but I know these knowledge will come to me in time.

I had a dream a few days ago and in that dream I only remembered "Trust in God, have faith in God". The rest of the dream is a blur. But this sentence is enough to make me feel better. There are somethings I can't change e.g. the way my mum reacted when I said I was turning to christianity and how angry she was. But there are some things I can change and that is how I react to it. I could have argued with her and make things worse ( you know me, I'm known for just shooting my mouth off when I'm pissed) or just let her have her say and leave it to the Lord. Another thing that I can change is the way I used to stress myself and worry myself like crazy. Worry is a sin so, let's not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. So, after knowing that, troubles haven't been able to get me really down and stressed up :)

Tried to explain to my brother about christianity yesterday but well... I think he only believed me 15%. I pray that he can be saved before it's too late and God bless him.

I have one wish which I hope I will be able to do. And that is to go to church. And it would be best if I can go to church with my parents blessings. This is one wish that is near but yet so far.

Trust, love and have faith for the lord...till the end...

Still Alive and jumping.....I guess....

Hi, it's me once again.

Nothing much to report except I haven't talked to someone for about 4 days now. And I think it's going to carry on....Not sure how long but well, as long as it will last. School's okay too. Nothing much to report. Classmates are also okay too, nothing to report too. Friends should be okay too so I guess nothing to report too. Trying not to think so much now cause sarah says I'm too sensitive and think too much so my brain will be off duty once each class is over and on-duty again once lessons start again so, not much thinking and this leads to not much feelings and it ends with nothing to write. Chain reaction. But not too bad for someone to babble rubbish and manage to write one long paragraph. So, I guess this means that I'm pretty good rubish speaker person. Whatever it is, nothing to say I guess....

So, See you