Shalom

Here I am, in my MO room, waiting for abigail. Hope Sister will just hurry =/

I went for this La trobe thingy today. Some sort of like a orientation briefing before the real orientation in Australia. I saw the people who will be doing Podiatry with me. There's a total of 5!!! Can you believe it?? 5!!! So many sia. I thought there will only be like 2. And they are all A level holders. Think sponsored too. Haiz. Sitting next to all of them, I felt so plain, so common, so lowly, so pressured, so...stupid.

It's like a roller coaster of emotions. Excited, Nervous, Scare, Happy, Worried... I think I'm going crazy too. Think I'm more afraid of the situations my parents will be facing here than the things I will face there. Read the new? Companies may freeze or cut wages to get through this crisis. Only god knows How long this crisis will last... 4 years... A 4 whole years. Suddenly I feel like I'm so stupid, for choosing this path. It's like though I don't really like what I'm doing, I've been doing for 1 year plus. Though I keep to myself, Somehow, I just shine. (Thank you Jesus)

And so, I was reading Joanna blog. Her relationship with jesus is really strong. She really trust in him and really feels him. But for me, it's like half-half. But I know I got to trust, have faith. Trust that he will provide for me, not just the next 4 years, but when I come back to S'pore, I will be able to get a job. *Trust*

Pray for me alright? It's just so scary...it's like a rollercoaster. I'm starting to dread feb 12th.