Here I am, in my MO room, waiting for abigail. Hope Sister will just hurry =/
I went for this La trobe thingy today. Some sort of like a orientation briefing before the real orientation in Australia. I saw the people who will be doing Podiatry with me. There's a total of 5!!! Can you believe it?? 5!!! So many sia. I thought there will only be like 2. And they are all A level holders. Think sponsored too. Haiz. Sitting next to all of them, I felt so plain, so common, so lowly, so pressured, so...stupid.
It's like a roller coaster of emotions. Excited, Nervous, Scare, Happy, Worried... I think I'm going crazy too. Think I'm more afraid of the situations my parents will be facing here than the things I will face there. Read the new? Companies may freeze or cut wages to get through this crisis. Only god knows How long this crisis will last... 4 years... A 4 whole years. Suddenly I feel like I'm so stupid, for choosing this path. It's like though I don't really like what I'm doing, I've been doing for 1 year plus. Though I keep to myself, Somehow, I just shine. (Thank you Jesus)
And so, I was reading Joanna blog. Her relationship with jesus is really strong. She really trust in him and really feels him. But for me, it's like half-half. But I know I got to trust, have faith. Trust that he will provide for me, not just the next 4 years, but when I come back to S'pore, I will be able to get a job. *Trust*
Pray for me alright? It's just so scary...it's like a rollercoaster. I'm starting to dread feb 12th.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Happy new year =)
Shalom.
Went out with some friends yesterday after work. I actually forgotten about the gift exchange and the present which I brought along was actually unsuitable for a guy if he was to choose it. And end up...Nevermind, long story. But in the end, he didn't get it. Charmaine did so, we can say she got the most expensive gift on the table =)
It was really fun, we haven't met up in a long time. And my dearest jihan is getting engaged on 13 March. Gosh, I can't believe it. Congrats my dearest. I'm so glad that you finally found your 'one and only'. I remember the times where you will always say that you will never fall in love etc. But now look at you my dearest, getting engaged soon. *Envy* Sighs... Congrats Jihan. =)
Too bad I can't be there cause I'll already be in Australia. But Nonetheless, My greatest, most sincere, most heartfelt congrats going your way.
Seeing all of us together again, after so long. I must say, we have really grown. We have seen 2 of our friends get married, and are now parents. And now jihan's engagement. I'm just eager to see who will be next. And once again, being together again, it just bring back lots of memories. Both good and bad.
Joanna crazy laughter, Sarah and that giggle. Charmaine and gen totally inseperable. Jihan looking as gorgeous as usual, and now more radiant. Etc. I guess, I'm still the same 'ol ,same 'ol,
quiet, keep to myself. Watch and listen.
I watched the movie 'Twilight'. It is SO romantic. Just so Romantic. Sighs. I once had a dream like that. A few years ago which I still remember clearly up till now. But of cause it was not the same scenario like the movie. In my dream, me and this guy was running away from vampires and I got the chance to escape. It's a long dream so I'll just say the end part. I managed to get into this cab and I was like in this carpark. I remember the guy asking me to get as far away as I can. So I wanted to go home to get my passport to go Malaysia. I told the driver to step on it. The taxi driver said ok and we were at the barrier there. And the driver said ' You should know, once we leave, we can never go back.' And I really stopped and thinked. I know he most probably have already become a vampire, but well. I just had this feeling inside me. And so in the end, I walked back to find him. For him, I was willing to become a vampire. And my dream just sort of slowly faded while the vampire was sucking my blood and I was looking at the guy I love. Haha.
Ya... some may say stupid, some may say romantic. But I dunno. Even in my dream, that feeling was so strong. If it was real life.... I would go to. *Stupid* I know.
In this new year of 2009, I don't know what will happen. But I'm just glad and thankful that I have Jesus to walk with me. He have really changed my life. I realised that I'm really starting to lean on him. Sometimes I tend to forget and rely on my own strength but he always guides me back to him. For the next 4 years, my trust is in him to be my provision, my strength, my wisdom and my life.
And before I end off. I realised something during our little gathering yesterday. I realised, if you had only made me feel like I was your one and only, and not make me feel like I was no different from the rest, maybe, just maybe we would have worked out. And so my wish for you (not sure if you will read this, and even if you read this, you may or may not know it's you but anyway...) My wish for you in the new year 2009 is to be bold, step forward and express yourself when you meet the one. Enough of guessing games. Be bold, step forward and express yourself ok? =)
Happy new year people =)
Went out with some friends yesterday after work. I actually forgotten about the gift exchange and the present which I brought along was actually unsuitable for a guy if he was to choose it. And end up...Nevermind, long story. But in the end, he didn't get it. Charmaine did so, we can say she got the most expensive gift on the table =)
It was really fun, we haven't met up in a long time. And my dearest jihan is getting engaged on 13 March. Gosh, I can't believe it. Congrats my dearest. I'm so glad that you finally found your 'one and only'. I remember the times where you will always say that you will never fall in love etc. But now look at you my dearest, getting engaged soon. *Envy* Sighs... Congrats Jihan. =)
Too bad I can't be there cause I'll already be in Australia. But Nonetheless, My greatest, most sincere, most heartfelt congrats going your way.
Seeing all of us together again, after so long. I must say, we have really grown. We have seen 2 of our friends get married, and are now parents. And now jihan's engagement. I'm just eager to see who will be next. And once again, being together again, it just bring back lots of memories. Both good and bad.
Joanna crazy laughter, Sarah and that giggle. Charmaine and gen totally inseperable. Jihan looking as gorgeous as usual, and now more radiant. Etc. I guess, I'm still the same 'ol ,same 'ol,
quiet, keep to myself. Watch and listen.
I watched the movie 'Twilight'. It is SO romantic. Just so Romantic. Sighs. I once had a dream like that. A few years ago which I still remember clearly up till now. But of cause it was not the same scenario like the movie. In my dream, me and this guy was running away from vampires and I got the chance to escape. It's a long dream so I'll just say the end part. I managed to get into this cab and I was like in this carpark. I remember the guy asking me to get as far away as I can. So I wanted to go home to get my passport to go Malaysia. I told the driver to step on it. The taxi driver said ok and we were at the barrier there. And the driver said ' You should know, once we leave, we can never go back.' And I really stopped and thinked. I know he most probably have already become a vampire, but well. I just had this feeling inside me. And so in the end, I walked back to find him. For him, I was willing to become a vampire. And my dream just sort of slowly faded while the vampire was sucking my blood and I was looking at the guy I love. Haha.
Ya... some may say stupid, some may say romantic. But I dunno. Even in my dream, that feeling was so strong. If it was real life.... I would go to. *Stupid* I know.
In this new year of 2009, I don't know what will happen. But I'm just glad and thankful that I have Jesus to walk with me. He have really changed my life. I realised that I'm really starting to lean on him. Sometimes I tend to forget and rely on my own strength but he always guides me back to him. For the next 4 years, my trust is in him to be my provision, my strength, my wisdom and my life.
And before I end off. I realised something during our little gathering yesterday. I realised, if you had only made me feel like I was your one and only, and not make me feel like I was no different from the rest, maybe, just maybe we would have worked out. And so my wish for you (not sure if you will read this, and even if you read this, you may or may not know it's you but anyway...) My wish for you in the new year 2009 is to be bold, step forward and express yourself when you meet the one. Enough of guessing games. Be bold, step forward and express yourself ok? =)
Happy new year people =)
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