Here I am, sitting in front of the computer, with a thousand and one things in my mind going through at the same time, and yet I can't find a place to start. From work to future, from past to present.
So much feelings locked up inside, I wished I could share. But I guess it's just me to always feel alot more than I let out. A tear was shed yesterday by me when she left us standing there yesterday. No one may know, but one tear just rolled out. Sympathy for the one who care, and pity for the one who left. Sympathy for the one who care, who have to stand there and take in every nonsense, and watch her leave us. Pity for the one who left, for not knowing what she left behind. A lot was risked by some people just for the sake of being together, but to have it end that way makes all that was risked in vain. Disappointed, hurt, angry. So, How do I feel? The moment she walked out on us, and left us standing there, the moment that tear rolled out of my eyes, she had already walked out of my life. That's how I feel.
Change can make people react in very weird ways. Maybe because she is leaving, that's why she reacted that way. Maybe I should leave this year too and see what will happen. Or maybe I should just leave and never return. Afterall my thinking should be the same like her's and that is I won't be missed. But lol, I'm sure she will be missed, but me...nah I dun think so. Haha.
Guess the lesson learnt is: Tolerance, and knowing when to stop your nonsense. Good night
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