Haiz...this has got to be the worse CNY in my life... And I think it will continue to be this way for the rest of my life. I don't really want to go in detail here, but I know that my mum is very upset... but who won't be. You can't bring back the dead, you can't undo the things that has been done. For once in my life, I'm at home at 8pm on the lst day of chinese new year... And this is not a good thing, neither do I feel good.
Instead of mahjong and steamboat, I'm playing audition. But guess what, I'm too distracted to play. My mind keeps wandering off. My eyes and fingers co-ordination are way off today, and I feel like crying...I really do. I know CNY will be different this year but I had no idea it would be this bad...
I just want to cry...but I won't cry now...not till I'm going to bed. At least after crying, I can go to sleep. Anyway, I will be fine. I'm used to crying myself to sleep anyway...this one will be no different.
I hope that the rest of you are having a great new year. Don't let me bring down your mood. It's a great festival. I used to look forward to it. Have a great new year =)
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