Stormy Day

I guess...After a storm has passed, nothing can ever be the same again. It either change for the better or for the worst.

Had a really stormy day today, filled with dark clouds, typhoon, thunderstorm and blizzard. No, it wasn't really raining. Had sort of a quarrel with a friend today. Was something that I has bottled up for abt coming to 2 years, I guess I just couldn't stand it anymore. It seem like a lame point, and I know it was all my own thinking, my own fault etc. But maybe I'm just a selfish person. I don't know how to share.. Maybe I got too used with having my own things. Or maybe I'm just a very Ambitious person, maybe I just can't settle being in the middle, not being no.1. Or maybe I'm just in a plain bad mood looking for some trouble. Whatever the reason, My other friends said I ought to calm down first before advancing.

I felt that I didn't need to. Coz i felt that friends are like passing clouds. They stay awhile then they go. I told my other friend, that's how all my other friends have been, they come, stay, leave. I'm never one for communication and always voted last on popularity. But I blame no one. I dun blame heaven, or earth or my friends. I just think it's something I lack. Afraid of loneliness but never one to make the 1st move...I guess I'm like that. I never dare hope for too much in 1 person, coz u never know when they will make u disappointed. I tried before and I felt it. And guess what, I remember. And I guess from then on, I just live life as it is.

I know that after a storm, things will never be the same. They either change for the better or for the worse. Will it be better or worse, I dunno and neither am I interested in finding out. But whatever it is, good or bad, for better or worse, life must still...sadly...carry on.

P.S: Is this the time to lean into the arms of God? Guide me...

Can't Sleep!!!!

It's 1:02AM now, my aircon is blasting away, It's all dark and quiet, the perfect time to sleep...But 1 problem, I CAN'T SLEEP...>_<

Maybe coz tml sch will start?!?? I dunno. I prefer sch to attachment, but well I still prefer holiday to school...I mean, Duh, who dun. Well, it has been a terribly long time since I last posted right?? Coz there was some problem with my blog and it was during attachment.

Life has been rotating ard maplestory and more maplestory. 2xEXP, 2x Drop rate. And finally, I hit the big 6-0. Finally...But it seems like when I finally hit the big 6-0, people are hitting lvls like 100, 120 or even 130. I am so utterly amazed and have nothing to say.

3rd year now...so scary, time just flies so fast. It seems like only yesterday that I just entered only. I have been thinking, if I could turn back time, would I have choosen another course? I think I would have, but the problem is, what? Maybe hospitality and tourism?? Maybe even Engineering?? I dunno. Nursing isn't like any other job. That's what I always believe. And trust me when I say, I am absolutely dreading PRCP. Please let it be 6 weeks. Oh God, give me strength.

Speaking abt 3rd Year, NAPFA is here...AAAAHHHHH. God just save me. I gotta buck up man.

Went out on Fri with sarah for dinner. Somewhere at upper serangoon road. A place call Grapevine. I LOVE their bacon roll. Leave u longing for more ;p . Their brownie isn't bad but I just can't finish the whole brownie. I always find it too chocolate-ty for my liking. No matter how hungry I am, just a few mouth of mouth-watering brownie is enough to turn me off. But sarah just loves it.

It's 1:13AM now. It's still dark and quiet and my air con is still blasting away. Maybe I just ought to bang my head against the way to knock me out...LOL. Goody nite.

~The Emperor has spoken~