Dear Diary,

Tomorrow (7/1/2013) is going to be my 1st day of work in CGH as a official podiatrist. Oh how time flew by... 4 years of studies gone in a blink of an eye. Of course, it didn't feel like that while I was going through it but now, looking back... Sighs.

I really have no idea how the next 3 years of my life will be. I just thank god that whatever I will be going through, he will be there for me every single step of the way. Of course, after studying for the past 4 years, I am really dragging myself back to work. So, Father, please help me!

Father,

I thank you for watching over me while I was over in melbourne. Father, I give thanks to know that with you, I find favor with my boss and colleagues for I have found favor with you. I give thanks to know that you will be my pillar of hope, strength and support during my working times and for the rest of my life. I give thanks to know that you are the source of my wisdom and knowledge. Father, I know problems will come but I give thanks to know that I will not be alone and that you will carry me through those times. I do pray that 3 years will fly by. I pray for my future and I hand my life (past, present and future) into your loving hands. In Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

19/4/2012

Well, it's officially the 19/4/2012 now. Which means I very well into my last day here in Singapore. I'll be flying back to Melbourne on the 20/4/2012 and will most probably not be back till next year... Last 2 sleeps on my bed. SAD!

I've been in Singapore since Feb and I think that this time round, I've actually stayed the longest since I started school 3 years ago. It hasn't gotten any easy saying good bye...especially to him. In a way, it's the last year, and maybe the last time I'll say goodbye for long periods, but at the same time, it hurts so much. I wished that I can bring him along. I wish that someone will invent a teleporter tomorrow and we can teleport to be with each other every day. How can you be missing someone before even leaving?

He started school on monday. I know he's worried cause he hasn't set foot in a school for about 2 years... but I know he will be great. I just hope he remembers me... If you are reading this my dear, know that I have absolute faith in you! Jia you. I'm sad that you can't visit me this year, and I know you are sad too. But maybe next year if I'm still there and when my mum isn't there.

Last year, last round. Father, I place this year into your loving hands as well. I know you will continue to guide me, bless me and keep me safe like you have always been doing. It feels good knowing that you will be there with me every step of the way. With this knowledge, I know I'll do well in everything cause you are with me. Thank you Jesus!

Dear, I love you.
To me, JIAYOU!

Wow! How long has it been? More than a year I reckon. No one reads this blog but still, I like to pop in once awhile (meaning once a year) and read/update.

Well, 4th year this year. How fast can it be right? It feels like it was only yesterday that I was right here, in my bed, typing about my upcoming 1st year. Will be leaving for Mel on the 23rd of Jan. However, I'll be back in less than 2 weeks. I know I'll miss my dear... I'm already missing him =(

In a way, I'm both happy and sad that it's my last year. Happy that I no longer need to worry about things like accommodation, finances, air tickets etc and missing my dear and having to deal with our long distance relationship + time difference. Sad cause I'll miss my freedom, and need to start working. I learnt so much the past 3 years. Life-long lessons.

Been reading my blog from the very beginning. Boy, I've grown. Maple and audition were my everything back then. Really miss the times we will all play together. We've all grown. Grown older and apart. Now, one by one, ppl are getting married/being parents. Sighs... life...

Really interesting to read about my life back then. Everything was so...simple. True, there were worries but everything was simple and fun. We had our share of drama but it was fun. If I am given a choice to re-live my poly life, I definitely would. Besides, It wouldn't hurt that I now have the clinical knowledge so clinical test will no longer be a problem. Muhahaha.

It's really entertaining to read about some of the things I used to believe in. E.g Not believing in having my own "Happily ever after" cause someone like me will NEVER have one. I finally found one. It took us forever... but it's ok, we'll have happily ever after =D

Maybe the next time I re-visit my blog, I'll find this post highly entertaining and amusing too. Haha.

For this year, I'm going to put it in to Jesus loving hands. Please continue to guide me in everything and keep me safe. Bless everyone back home and my dear. I'll have faith in you =D

"I may not understand my life, I may not understand my choices. I may not
understand the path I take, I may not understand the things I do. However, I'm
glad that you understand, cause to me, that makes me feel SO much better.
Thank You Jesus. "

So much for boyfriend, so much for friends. When you are left with nothing, you'll realize that no one's left too.

When your tears start falling, no one will be here to catch them.

When your all alone, no one is around to give you a hug.

When life drags you to your knees, no one is around to give you a hand.

So fuck off with your fake concerns. When I really needed someone, there was no one. I'll live, I'll always live. I can always just take a U turn. I can blame no one for my stupidness. For my failure. But I'll walk my own path. Cause now I learnt. When you really need someone, there is ALWAYS no one.