Maybe I've been a bad friend... Maybe I have depression. Maybe it's just PMS. Or at least I hope that it is only PMS.

I've been feeling down these few days. I have no idea why. So alone... Maybe I have been a bad friend. Or maybe, no one knows that I've been in a bad mood these few days cause my face is always black. Or maybe, no one cares. Frankly speaking, I'm way past caring. I know I tried my best to be a friend when people needed one. Some people just like company when they are upset and some just want to be left alone. What do I need now? I need a friend. I need company. But sadly, no one is here. The people here are giving me all the 'space' I need.

Just need someone to sit with me. Someone to do the talking. Just a presence. And all I have...is myself....Well done Amanda. You actually chased everyone away. Well done. Bravo.

I wish that I was born a robot.

Cold, heartless and cruel.

I wished that I wasn't born a human.

Cause humans have a live beating heart that experiences feeling.

Today I experienced happiness, excitement, hopefulness and gratefulness. But the disappointment that you gave me made all those disappear.

For once in my life I don't know how to say goodbye...