Thursday, December 20, 2007

I finally found it...

I can't believe how stupid I am..the answers to all my problems has always been right in front of me... The answer to L&L&L actually lies in faith. Just, faith. I finally found what I lost a long time ago... I actually lost faith.

Usual stuffs

So, it's me again...

Just went back to work on monday after AL. So, how did I spend my AL? Well, since it was just a short 7 dyas + 1 RD and 1 DO, naturally I couldn't go very far. Haiz...

So what's new? Met up with some people on tuesday, received my birthday presents which kinda surprised me, cause that would explain why I had the really weird feeling since morning. I was like feeling all jittery and I had no idea...and no, it's definately not due to that handsome Endo HO. I had been doing junior for at least 1 week before AL, till yesterday. Not that I'm complaining, junior is kinda good and bad. Good cause less stress, bad cause well, I will have no reasons to talk to doctors. Well, anyway, just both good and bad. Still trying to figure out which one outweighs the other.

I can't run anymore, sister caught me and made me sign that confimation letter...Just great =(
1 month notice before leaving now...it's only 5 months, what's her rush?

My butt is aching, my palm is aching, my back is absolutely killing me, my lungs were on the verge of collapsing on monday and now my whole body is aching from head to toe just because of that stupid BCLS re-cert. I was like so close to failing but well, I passed. Wouldn't know how to explain to sister if I failed... The instructor was telling me "Give a slow, steady kiss...like how you usually do...'' Er...but what's a slow and steady kiss?? Haha, but well, I finally grasped that technique, so now, I'm certified to do 'slow and steady kisses' if necessary...well at least that cert is valid for 2 years...haha

L&L...I'm sick and tired of the yearning, the longing and trying to find out the reason. I have absolutely no idea how to carry on, or think about things like when, who and how. Sometimes life is just so unfair, but sometimes, I realised that life is fair. Maybe it's destined to be this way, maybe it's fated. Maybe I'm supposed to be a complete failure in everything, or maybe good things aren't supposed to happen to me. If that really is the way, then let it be that way. Because the world will keep on spinning and life will just keep moving. Cause no one gives a damn, so whatever will be, will be...

L&L&L...I hate Ls...