Sunday, November 26, 2006

He loves you too =)

I remember once, when I was in church with my friends, it was bible study. A pastor said something, which I have never noticed. He said, he was watching a show one day, and in the show 2 person were talking in a church. 1 person said to the other "Why is it that of all the religion, why does the christianity portray itself like this.?" 'This' meaning Jesus on the cross. I understood the meaning. What he meant was, in every religion, they try and show the stronger side of their gods, but why christianity choose to represent it other way? I'm not pointing fingers here, I'm not saying anything. I'm just blogging down something I heard, which caught my attention and triggered me to think.

Recently, I've been feeling down. Problems everywhere. Problems on future. Problems on coming attachment. Problem with someone's attitude. Problems, doubts, fears everywhere. Was surfing around the net, and I went to Jo's blog. And I watched something there. I just burst to tears. I don't have the face to watch the whole thing. My tears just came. And I realized, that I'm love once again.

Just when I thought that no one loves me and that I will never find love...Love found me and told me that he loves me...

I'm sorry if it sounds gibberish to you. But it's pretty much a personal thing. If u understand, good for you. If you don't...then too bad. And one more thing: He wants to let u know he loves u too =)

Saturday, November 25, 2006

title~less

Ok, it's about time I update...So, what's new?

Well, was awaken from my beauty sleep at 3.50am in the morning and was completely caught off surprise that I will be receiving my results today. Anyway, I failed 2...Sobs...So sad. =(
Apparently it seems oyster doesn't sleep at all. Messaging at 2.40am in the morning isn't cute. You are lucky I didn't wake up. Or else...I'll go to your house and grill you personally.

So, what else did I do? hmm...went to jihan house, was invited for lunch, a job well done there jihan. Next day went for Sarah's b'day party. Not in a mood to elaborate...Use your imagination to fill up the blanks and spaces.

Haiz... There's a knot within me that has never been "untied". I used to be so sure, but now... I feel like I'm wrong. I'm glad to see that my friend's lives are going smoothly, that their relationship with god is great, and that they are not killing one another...haha. But I wish that I can say the same for my life. I'm confused, even more confuse and still confuse. But I know, I won't be alone...For I am my father's child.

The future may seem bleak, my path may seem long, my life may seem dark, but he will never leave me. His ray of light will be my inspiration, his touch will be my energy, and his words will be my life. His ray of light is so comforting...Will I get to see it again? Even for a mere 5 seconds, his ray of light is breath-taking. To feel it for 5 secs, it's enough to last me a whole-lifetime. His presence is always around me, though I don't speak much about it, I feel it.

I got so used to saying "By God's Grace..." that I decided on a name for my future daughter. Grace. Cause it's by God's Grace that she's my daughter, so Grace will be her name. But that can only happen if I get married, and that happens only when I fall in love, and that is highly impossible for I know where I stand...But it's ok to dream right?

Alright, it's time to go to bed. Nitey~ =)


Alright, Alright, I know you guys don't believe it. Alright, I passed all. 1 A, 2 B+, 3B and 1 C+.
Still ok lah hor? =) hehe