My thigh is absolutely aching... Ouch.
Did my NAPFA test on thurs. My body didn't show any sign of aching on fri morning, and trust me, I has a great time laughing at the rest of my classmates coz they were all moaning and groaning. But...good things weren't meant to last, got the full blown effect in the afternoon -_-. And today, it's still aching.
So, how did I fare for my NAPFA?? Well, I failed...HAHA. I passed all 5 stations and failed at my 2.4km (as usual). My muscles around my ankle was so tight when I was doing my 2.4km. I tried plantar flexing my feet but I couldn't, I was practically limping the whole way through. The muscles were so tight, I was so afraid that my tibia and fibula will be snap by my muscles. And in the end, I couldn't even walk properly, much less run. Anyway, I didn't even complete my 6 rounds. I was already way past the time limit and they called me to stop, so I stopped. Maybe I strained myself too much during the 5 stations.
So results: Sit Up: 34 (surprised? My parents were so surprise...They didn't know someone my size could still do sit up...-_-''' Anyway after that, I thought I just gave birth...LOL, coz I was so tired)
Standing Board Jump: 170cm (A new personal record for me!!!)
Sit And Reach: 41cm (I think another new personal record again. Anyway, have always been terrible at this)
Inclined Pull Up: 11 ( Another new record. )
Shuttle Run: 12.4 (Phew...just made it. Just Barely Made it)
As for 2.4km, well, let's say since young I was never a long distance runner, I was always a 100m sprinter. Honest. Not saying in self-defense or anything, but ask my primary school friends, I was really picked to be a 100m/200m runner for inter-house challenge lor.
Ok, I'm tired now, need to rest my eyes, been playing audition all day until my fingers are stuck. God bless~
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Monday, August 28, 2006
Before and After
You know what I used to think...
(1) She did me wrong, she disappointed me first. She ought to "make up" for what she has done, and here she is, treating me like I am invisible, treating the whole thing like it was my fault, my mistake.
(2) God isn't interested in tiny affairs like this.
(3) How can anyone be so thick-skinned and just put everything saying God will do this, God will do that etc.
What I think now...
She don't need to make up for what she has done. Though it wasn't necessary for me to make the 1st step and say let's start all over again, I did. I showed my path, and if she wants to know where I'm headed, she knows. Secondly, God is interested. Thirdly, Coz, he is God. It isn't about "thick-ness" of skin, it's about believeing he is there for you.
Feelings now...
Still disappointed. But starting to let it go. Coz sometimes in life, disappointment will happen. I haven't been the best of friends to her. Now that we are like this, I blame no one too. But sometimes when flashbacks happen, the feelings come back. Working hard to get rid of it to turn it neutral.
We all know that it is impossible to be what we used to be but anyway, I am tired of having to type here everyday because of the same person. She took up enough of my time, killed enough of my brain cells, and hurt me enough.
Recently I stumbled upon a few very nice sentences. I fell in love with it instantly:
(1) Do your best and God will bless- Found it from chicken soup for the nurses soul. The story is like one of the miracles jesus performed. Remember he fed a thousand ppl with those few loafes of bread and fish, well the story is about that miracle. Apparently they are in that country to help ppl but their medical supplies got confiscated. Left them with very minimal supply. But they prayed and that minimal supply actually lasted the whole day when they thought it will only last a few hrs. How lovely is that right? There is 1 more miracle that was performed but if you want to know, buy the book and read. I am not spoiling the fun =p
(2) Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible- Don't you just love this sentence...well, I do. No story behind this, not that I know of. Coz I saw it on yue ning msn msg there and I know I just have to add it in. Maybe my relationship, which I deemed impossible to be like before, may actually have a chance to go back??? I don't know. Let's all just sit back and let my dearest daddy God work his wonders...
okay, the end, you can leave now. I need go play maple liao... (dunno character die liao mah =x)
(1) She did me wrong, she disappointed me first. She ought to "make up" for what she has done, and here she is, treating me like I am invisible, treating the whole thing like it was my fault, my mistake.
(2) God isn't interested in tiny affairs like this.
(3) How can anyone be so thick-skinned and just put everything saying God will do this, God will do that etc.
What I think now...
She don't need to make up for what she has done. Though it wasn't necessary for me to make the 1st step and say let's start all over again, I did. I showed my path, and if she wants to know where I'm headed, she knows. Secondly, God is interested. Thirdly, Coz, he is God. It isn't about "thick-ness" of skin, it's about believeing he is there for you.
Feelings now...
Still disappointed. But starting to let it go. Coz sometimes in life, disappointment will happen. I haven't been the best of friends to her. Now that we are like this, I blame no one too. But sometimes when flashbacks happen, the feelings come back. Working hard to get rid of it to turn it neutral.
We all know that it is impossible to be what we used to be but anyway, I am tired of having to type here everyday because of the same person. She took up enough of my time, killed enough of my brain cells, and hurt me enough.
Recently I stumbled upon a few very nice sentences. I fell in love with it instantly:
(1) Do your best and God will bless- Found it from chicken soup for the nurses soul. The story is like one of the miracles jesus performed. Remember he fed a thousand ppl with those few loafes of bread and fish, well the story is about that miracle. Apparently they are in that country to help ppl but their medical supplies got confiscated. Left them with very minimal supply. But they prayed and that minimal supply actually lasted the whole day when they thought it will only last a few hrs. How lovely is that right? There is 1 more miracle that was performed but if you want to know, buy the book and read. I am not spoiling the fun =p
(2) Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible- Don't you just love this sentence...well, I do. No story behind this, not that I know of. Coz I saw it on yue ning msn msg there and I know I just have to add it in. Maybe my relationship, which I deemed impossible to be like before, may actually have a chance to go back??? I don't know. Let's all just sit back and let my dearest daddy God work his wonders...
okay, the end, you can leave now. I need go play maple liao... (dunno character die liao mah =x)
Monday, August 21, 2006
Theories of life...
Since the beginning of the year, my life has been revolving around hospital. What is it between me and hospital? I really wonder...
Hope my dearest Ah ma will get on well after her op. =)
Was chit-chatting with a few of my aunties and while chatting, I remembered about what I told yung hwui. Life is fair. People always said that life isn't fair, why is it that he got that and I don't have it. Well, have u ever thought about what you have that he don't? Sometimes in life, we got to lose some things to gain some things. Some times, you got to experience somethings to gain some knowledge. Was telling my aunt today, the lesson I learnt from the earlier funeral. I learnt how I used to take things for granted...How I never once really looked at my grandma until she was on her deathbed. How I saw the ugly faces of people who I thought I knew. How I lose a friend but gained one more that is so much better and how fragile life can be.
Sometimes in life, u just never know who are the people who treats you with honesty, who really mean what they said. This time round,my Ah ma is in hospital. I really saw who was really there. I know who is the one who really cares for me. Who message me daily though she don't have to. Was talking to my aunt about some problems that I have. And what she said was true. In life, you can have many friends. But when bad times come, the true ones that stick by your side are the ones you can count on for the rest of your life. Though I'm not really very sociable, I do have some friends. Friends who call me best friend etc. But honestly, I never once believed. They do sound nice, but where the **** are you when I need you? I've got friends, but whether they got me as a friend is a question. True, when time comes, I'll try my best and be there. But sorry, Priority. So far, I guess I can only say, I think I truly found one.
Sometimes, in life, you may have a boyfriend/girlfriend, but may have a bad family relationship. Life is fair, if life can't give you a good family relationship, they will "make" it up to you by another way. Laws of life (1) Life is fair. (2) What goes around, comes around. I won't exactly say Law of life, more like theory of life. But whatever it is, however terrible/good my life turns out, I know who I can count on for all eternity. Make a guess who...starts with a J----. Reward: A new friend for you too who is really there be it the good times and the bad times =p
I know it may seem frightening to you that a 18 year old speak so maturely. I know, coz if you heard my conversation with my aunties, you would be shocked...Well, she was. Guess she never know I had it =p
Hope my dearest Ah ma will get on well after her op. =)
Was chit-chatting with a few of my aunties and while chatting, I remembered about what I told yung hwui. Life is fair. People always said that life isn't fair, why is it that he got that and I don't have it. Well, have u ever thought about what you have that he don't? Sometimes in life, we got to lose some things to gain some things. Some times, you got to experience somethings to gain some knowledge. Was telling my aunt today, the lesson I learnt from the earlier funeral. I learnt how I used to take things for granted...How I never once really looked at my grandma until she was on her deathbed. How I saw the ugly faces of people who I thought I knew. How I lose a friend but gained one more that is so much better and how fragile life can be.
Sometimes in life, u just never know who are the people who treats you with honesty, who really mean what they said. This time round,my Ah ma is in hospital. I really saw who was really there. I know who is the one who really cares for me. Who message me daily though she don't have to. Was talking to my aunt about some problems that I have. And what she said was true. In life, you can have many friends. But when bad times come, the true ones that stick by your side are the ones you can count on for the rest of your life. Though I'm not really very sociable, I do have some friends. Friends who call me best friend etc. But honestly, I never once believed. They do sound nice, but where the **** are you when I need you? I've got friends, but whether they got me as a friend is a question. True, when time comes, I'll try my best and be there. But sorry, Priority. So far, I guess I can only say, I think I truly found one.
Sometimes, in life, you may have a boyfriend/girlfriend, but may have a bad family relationship. Life is fair, if life can't give you a good family relationship, they will "make" it up to you by another way. Laws of life (1) Life is fair. (2) What goes around, comes around. I won't exactly say Law of life, more like theory of life. But whatever it is, however terrible/good my life turns out, I know who I can count on for all eternity. Make a guess who...starts with a J----. Reward: A new friend for you too who is really there be it the good times and the bad times =p
I know it may seem frightening to you that a 18 year old speak so maturely. I know, coz if you heard my conversation with my aunties, you would be shocked...Well, she was. Guess she never know I had it =p
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Life...
I haven't posted for quite some time. But during this past some time, some things just happened which makes me take a step back and review about life again. During this past some time, I lost my grandma (maternal side). I remember that very faithful day, where I was in school with the usual gang. We were laughing, joking, fooling around at mac. When we were about to leave, I realised that my mum left me 20 missed calls. I was about to call back when my mum call again. She was practically screaming through the phone...My grandma was going to die. My grandma was diagnosed around jan- early feb that she had colon cancer. And it was at the last stage when we found out. I rushed all the way down but of course, she didn't go that day.
I remember coming home, my handphone flooded with messages from ppl like jian hao, yung hwui, charmaine etc, sending me condolences and encouragment. But the one most important friend didn't send me any. Thinking that she don't know, it was only right of me to call her. It was pretty late, I was really down, and back then, the only one I can think of who will understand my situation and lend a listening ear, was sarah. I will never forget the day, I called her 1st handphone more than 5 times, 2nd handphone 5 times. It was pretty late, and I thought she was asleep. I decided to try 1 last time. And it got through. However, she wasn't asleep. She was happily at her friends hse, drinking vodka till she was dead drunk. Apparently whatever I want to tell her, whatever emotions I have inside was replaced with disappointment. She couldn't hear from my voice I needed her desperately... that I needed to cry. She didn't. She was too busy telling me she was drunk, and in turn, I got to tell her to take care of herself etc.
When I hung up, I called another friend of mine. I called Yung hwui. I just cried out to her. But she was there. I told her how disappointed I was, how upset I was. I never expect anything back from sarah for how much I been there for her when she was at her most terrible period. Though at that time, there was nothing I could do, I kept reminding her I was there. But I thought that at least, now, it was my turn, maybe she can give me at least some encouragment. I was disappointed, I really was. Well, I did tell her in the end, but, I no longer expect anything from her. I don't blame her, she was dead drunk. But, I know I can no longer really count on her now.
I, Amanda Wong, seldom cry in front of people. I hardly need people to comfort me. Even after knowing that my grandma was going to die, I can control my tears till I was safe in my own space. But, in life, there will come a time, when u need someone to hear you. When u need someone to hear u just wail it out. Even through the phone.
My grandma is almost gone for 1 month now. I wasn't really close to her. But most of the times, when someone mention things like hospital, my mind will do this rewinding back to the very 1st day we found out till the whole thing was over. In less than 1/2 a year, I lost my grandma. So many "If" just keep running through my mind. If she went to the doctor earlier, will she still be here? If she had chemotherapy, will she still be here? So many "If"
And now, My other grandma...God, please bless her. She's the one I'm really close to. I don't think I can stand the sight of another person leaving me again. 2 in 1 year is too much. I want her to see me get married, and carry her great grandchild. please bless her. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.....
I remember coming home, my handphone flooded with messages from ppl like jian hao, yung hwui, charmaine etc, sending me condolences and encouragment. But the one most important friend didn't send me any. Thinking that she don't know, it was only right of me to call her. It was pretty late, I was really down, and back then, the only one I can think of who will understand my situation and lend a listening ear, was sarah. I will never forget the day, I called her 1st handphone more than 5 times, 2nd handphone 5 times. It was pretty late, and I thought she was asleep. I decided to try 1 last time. And it got through. However, she wasn't asleep. She was happily at her friends hse, drinking vodka till she was dead drunk. Apparently whatever I want to tell her, whatever emotions I have inside was replaced with disappointment. She couldn't hear from my voice I needed her desperately... that I needed to cry. She didn't. She was too busy telling me she was drunk, and in turn, I got to tell her to take care of herself etc.
When I hung up, I called another friend of mine. I called Yung hwui. I just cried out to her. But she was there. I told her how disappointed I was, how upset I was. I never expect anything back from sarah for how much I been there for her when she was at her most terrible period. Though at that time, there was nothing I could do, I kept reminding her I was there. But I thought that at least, now, it was my turn, maybe she can give me at least some encouragment. I was disappointed, I really was. Well, I did tell her in the end, but, I no longer expect anything from her. I don't blame her, she was dead drunk. But, I know I can no longer really count on her now.
I, Amanda Wong, seldom cry in front of people. I hardly need people to comfort me. Even after knowing that my grandma was going to die, I can control my tears till I was safe in my own space. But, in life, there will come a time, when u need someone to hear you. When u need someone to hear u just wail it out. Even through the phone.
My grandma is almost gone for 1 month now. I wasn't really close to her. But most of the times, when someone mention things like hospital, my mind will do this rewinding back to the very 1st day we found out till the whole thing was over. In less than 1/2 a year, I lost my grandma. So many "If" just keep running through my mind. If she went to the doctor earlier, will she still be here? If she had chemotherapy, will she still be here? So many "If"
And now, My other grandma...God, please bless her. She's the one I'm really close to. I don't think I can stand the sight of another person leaving me again. 2 in 1 year is too much. I want her to see me get married, and carry her great grandchild. please bless her. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.....
Monday, July 17, 2006
Stormy Day
I guess...After a storm has passed, nothing can ever be the same again. It either change for the better or for the worst.
Had a really stormy day today, filled with dark clouds, typhoon, thunderstorm and blizzard. No, it wasn't really raining. Had sort of a quarrel with a friend today. Was something that I has bottled up for abt coming to 2 years, I guess I just couldn't stand it anymore. It seem like a lame point, and I know it was all my own thinking, my own fault etc. But maybe I'm just a selfish person. I don't know how to share.. Maybe I got too used with having my own things. Or maybe I'm just a very Ambitious person, maybe I just can't settle being in the middle, not being no.1. Or maybe I'm just in a plain bad mood looking for some trouble. Whatever the reason, My other friends said I ought to calm down first before advancing.
I felt that I didn't need to. Coz i felt that friends are like passing clouds. They stay awhile then they go. I told my other friend, that's how all my other friends have been, they come, stay, leave. I'm never one for communication and always voted last on popularity. But I blame no one. I dun blame heaven, or earth or my friends. I just think it's something I lack. Afraid of loneliness but never one to make the 1st move...I guess I'm like that. I never dare hope for too much in 1 person, coz u never know when they will make u disappointed. I tried before and I felt it. And guess what, I remember. And I guess from then on, I just live life as it is.
I know that after a storm, things will never be the same. They either change for the better or for the worse. Will it be better or worse, I dunno and neither am I interested in finding out. But whatever it is, good or bad, for better or worse, life must still...sadly...carry on.
P.S: Is this the time to lean into the arms of God? Guide me...
Had a really stormy day today, filled with dark clouds, typhoon, thunderstorm and blizzard. No, it wasn't really raining. Had sort of a quarrel with a friend today. Was something that I has bottled up for abt coming to 2 years, I guess I just couldn't stand it anymore. It seem like a lame point, and I know it was all my own thinking, my own fault etc. But maybe I'm just a selfish person. I don't know how to share.. Maybe I got too used with having my own things. Or maybe I'm just a very Ambitious person, maybe I just can't settle being in the middle, not being no.1. Or maybe I'm just in a plain bad mood looking for some trouble. Whatever the reason, My other friends said I ought to calm down first before advancing.
I felt that I didn't need to. Coz i felt that friends are like passing clouds. They stay awhile then they go. I told my other friend, that's how all my other friends have been, they come, stay, leave. I'm never one for communication and always voted last on popularity. But I blame no one. I dun blame heaven, or earth or my friends. I just think it's something I lack. Afraid of loneliness but never one to make the 1st move...I guess I'm like that. I never dare hope for too much in 1 person, coz u never know when they will make u disappointed. I tried before and I felt it. And guess what, I remember. And I guess from then on, I just live life as it is.
I know that after a storm, things will never be the same. They either change for the better or for the worse. Will it be better or worse, I dunno and neither am I interested in finding out. But whatever it is, good or bad, for better or worse, life must still...sadly...carry on.
P.S: Is this the time to lean into the arms of God? Guide me...
Monday, July 03, 2006
Can't Sleep!!!!
It's 1:02AM now, my aircon is blasting away, It's all dark and quiet, the perfect time to sleep...But 1 problem, I CAN'T SLEEP...>_<
Maybe coz tml sch will start?!?? I dunno. I prefer sch to attachment, but well I still prefer holiday to school...I mean, Duh, who dun. Well, it has been a terribly long time since I last posted right?? Coz there was some problem with my blog and it was during attachment.
Life has been rotating ard maplestory and more maplestory. 2xEXP, 2x Drop rate. And finally, I hit the big 6-0. Finally...But it seems like when I finally hit the big 6-0, people are hitting lvls like 100, 120 or even 130. I am so utterly amazed and have nothing to say.
3rd year now...so scary, time just flies so fast. It seems like only yesterday that I just entered only. I have been thinking, if I could turn back time, would I have choosen another course? I think I would have, but the problem is, what? Maybe hospitality and tourism?? Maybe even Engineering?? I dunno. Nursing isn't like any other job. That's what I always believe. And trust me when I say, I am absolutely dreading PRCP. Please let it be 6 weeks. Oh God, give me strength.
Speaking abt 3rd Year, NAPFA is here...AAAAHHHHH. God just save me. I gotta buck up man.
Went out on Fri with sarah for dinner. Somewhere at upper serangoon road. A place call Grapevine. I LOVE their bacon roll. Leave u longing for more ;p . Their brownie isn't bad but I just can't finish the whole brownie. I always find it too chocolate-ty for my liking. No matter how hungry I am, just a few mouth of mouth-watering brownie is enough to turn me off. But sarah just loves it.
It's 1:13AM now. It's still dark and quiet and my air con is still blasting away. Maybe I just ought to bang my head against the way to knock me out...LOL. Goody nite.
~The Emperor has spoken~
Maybe coz tml sch will start?!?? I dunno. I prefer sch to attachment, but well I still prefer holiday to school...I mean, Duh, who dun. Well, it has been a terribly long time since I last posted right?? Coz there was some problem with my blog and it was during attachment.
Life has been rotating ard maplestory and more maplestory. 2xEXP, 2x Drop rate. And finally, I hit the big 6-0. Finally...But it seems like when I finally hit the big 6-0, people are hitting lvls like 100, 120 or even 130. I am so utterly amazed and have nothing to say.
3rd year now...so scary, time just flies so fast. It seems like only yesterday that I just entered only. I have been thinking, if I could turn back time, would I have choosen another course? I think I would have, but the problem is, what? Maybe hospitality and tourism?? Maybe even Engineering?? I dunno. Nursing isn't like any other job. That's what I always believe. And trust me when I say, I am absolutely dreading PRCP. Please let it be 6 weeks. Oh God, give me strength.
Speaking abt 3rd Year, NAPFA is here...AAAAHHHHH. God just save me. I gotta buck up man.
Went out on Fri with sarah for dinner. Somewhere at upper serangoon road. A place call Grapevine. I LOVE their bacon roll. Leave u longing for more ;p . Their brownie isn't bad but I just can't finish the whole brownie. I always find it too chocolate-ty for my liking. No matter how hungry I am, just a few mouth of mouth-watering brownie is enough to turn me off. But sarah just loves it.
It's 1:13AM now. It's still dark and quiet and my air con is still blasting away. Maybe I just ought to bang my head against the way to knock me out...LOL. Goody nite.
~The Emperor has spoken~
Thursday, February 23, 2006
OUCH!!!!
Hi, it's me. Long time no see right? Miss me? lol
Went and run yesterday. Me, sarah, char and yh. I almost died, lol. I ran 2 1/2 rounds and walked 1/2 round. Then we went and play ard, changed and went for lunch. And now today....I get the full effect...WHOLE BODY ACHE. Save me...I need a wheelchair. Front to back, top to bottom. Well, afterall, I haven't exercise for abt 3 years already.
Well, another boring day today. Sarah FINALLY finished her project. I'm about to be frozen. The aircon here is really...blasting. I'm surprised that it's not snowing here. Anyway, I better be going. ME want to go home. BuBye =)
~The emperor has spoken~
Went and run yesterday. Me, sarah, char and yh. I almost died, lol. I ran 2 1/2 rounds and walked 1/2 round. Then we went and play ard, changed and went for lunch. And now today....I get the full effect...WHOLE BODY ACHE. Save me...I need a wheelchair. Front to back, top to bottom. Well, afterall, I haven't exercise for abt 3 years already.
Well, another boring day today. Sarah FINALLY finished her project. I'm about to be frozen. The aircon here is really...blasting. I'm surprised that it's not snowing here. Anyway, I better be going. ME want to go home. BuBye =)
~The emperor has spoken~
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Monday, January 02, 2006
Lazy gal signing in...
Hihi, long time no see.
Just went and cut my hair on sunday...it's really short now. Am discussing what elective to take with the usual few. Haiz...sch is here again. Actually, time really pass really fast. It seems like yesterday that I just went on holiday then attachment. LOL. But anyway, life still got to carry on. oh well, not really in the long speech mood now so chaoz.
The emperor has spoken~
Just went and cut my hair on sunday...it's really short now. Am discussing what elective to take with the usual few. Haiz...sch is here again. Actually, time really pass really fast. It seems like yesterday that I just went on holiday then attachment. LOL. But anyway, life still got to carry on. oh well, not really in the long speech mood now so chaoz.
The emperor has spoken~
Friday, November 18, 2005
Unfair...
Forgive me if I seem angry coz I am.
I have been at lvl 41 the whole entire day of yesterday, up to now. Yesterday, as soon as yh log in, I have been partying with her. While she fights her slimes, I fight green mush for her to lvl. The only time in between to fight my own things is when she goes off and repot. Been trying to find the fastest way to lvl today. Fought stone golems and died in the end which decrease my EXP further. Went into the dungeon to fight cold eye and drakes. Their spawn is pathetic. And I'm only 6% away frm lvl 42 but I got to go and find 50 firewood for yh to do quest. This is easy. I finally went to her, and she suddenly disappear. She change chn. I change chn and she change location. I went to her location, and she went up higher....Grr... nothing to say.
Lucky people. Got people party them, bring them go fight, let them lvl fast. Reason: They new, ther are newbies. Like I started immediately at lvl 40 like that. Who took my hand and bring me go fight green mush when I'm lvl 11 so I can leech? No one. Who fought green mush while I only fight slimes so I can get EXP when I'm lvl 15? No one. Who help me go do quests? No one. Who teach me step by step where to buy things, where to hunt, where to go etc? No one. Did anyone help me play so I can go frm lvl 1 to lvl 8? No one. I did everything by myself, I learnt everything by myself. And I got to where I am today by myself.
Yeah, I "Pro". Then ppl lvl 60+ call what? Gods? It won't be surprising if they catch up with me one day. Maybe one day they have to let me leech. They must give me items. They must fight monsters which are so pathetic in EXP that every 3 they kill, they only get 0.01%. And the least those monsters can do, is to drop me something good. Something worthy. Nothing. Sometimes, I really wonder, why is it that even in a virtual world, in a computer world, are things also so unfair?
I have been at lvl 41 the whole entire day of yesterday, up to now. Yesterday, as soon as yh log in, I have been partying with her. While she fights her slimes, I fight green mush for her to lvl. The only time in between to fight my own things is when she goes off and repot. Been trying to find the fastest way to lvl today. Fought stone golems and died in the end which decrease my EXP further. Went into the dungeon to fight cold eye and drakes. Their spawn is pathetic. And I'm only 6% away frm lvl 42 but I got to go and find 50 firewood for yh to do quest. This is easy. I finally went to her, and she suddenly disappear. She change chn. I change chn and she change location. I went to her location, and she went up higher....Grr... nothing to say.
Lucky people. Got people party them, bring them go fight, let them lvl fast. Reason: They new, ther are newbies. Like I started immediately at lvl 40 like that. Who took my hand and bring me go fight green mush when I'm lvl 11 so I can leech? No one. Who fought green mush while I only fight slimes so I can get EXP when I'm lvl 15? No one. Who help me go do quests? No one. Who teach me step by step where to buy things, where to hunt, where to go etc? No one. Did anyone help me play so I can go frm lvl 1 to lvl 8? No one. I did everything by myself, I learnt everything by myself. And I got to where I am today by myself.
Yeah, I "Pro". Then ppl lvl 60+ call what? Gods? It won't be surprising if they catch up with me one day. Maybe one day they have to let me leech. They must give me items. They must fight monsters which are so pathetic in EXP that every 3 they kill, they only get 0.01%. And the least those monsters can do, is to drop me something good. Something worthy. Nothing. Sometimes, I really wonder, why is it that even in a virtual world, in a computer world, are things also so unfair?
Monday, October 24, 2005
Whatever...
I am so very disappointed. How many times have I helped her along the way. Now all I am asking is that she accompany me to school to study and she's reacting like I asked her to take drugs or commit suicide. Thousands of excuses...what "good" friends I have.
True, she's got her distinction to take and I've got my shit to take right?!? People got distinction and I've got a pile of rubblish. Nothing to say. Anyway, loneliness is something I've gotten used to although I don't like it. Maybe I'm destined to be alone all my life, and I don't give a damn. It's a good time now to say the "F" word but it's a good thing I don't or the whole entry will be filled with that word.
Anyway, Being forced has never made anyone happy. So, from now onwards, She'll go her way and I'll go my way. She'll pick her distinctions and A's, while I get my rubbish and shits. She'll go with her sweet dopey huge group of friends and I'll go with my own shadow. Complain to the rest, tell the rest, I don't care. Tell them I got attitude, tell them I'm acting like Joanna. Tell them I'm trying to waste your precious time and trying to rid you of your distinctions and A's. Be the poor little, tiny, innocent never guilty girl that you have always been and I'll be the big,baddie,meanie fellow I have always been. Tell them say I'm trying to force you to do something that you don't want for my own happiness. Whatever... I no longer care. Don't care if I die tomorrow or whatever. Whatever, I no longer give a damn.
True, she's got her distinction to take and I've got my shit to take right?!? People got distinction and I've got a pile of rubblish. Nothing to say. Anyway, loneliness is something I've gotten used to although I don't like it. Maybe I'm destined to be alone all my life, and I don't give a damn. It's a good time now to say the "F" word but it's a good thing I don't or the whole entry will be filled with that word.
Anyway, Being forced has never made anyone happy. So, from now onwards, She'll go her way and I'll go my way. She'll pick her distinctions and A's, while I get my rubbish and shits. She'll go with her sweet dopey huge group of friends and I'll go with my own shadow. Complain to the rest, tell the rest, I don't care. Tell them I got attitude, tell them I'm acting like Joanna. Tell them I'm trying to waste your precious time and trying to rid you of your distinctions and A's. Be the poor little, tiny, innocent never guilty girl that you have always been and I'll be the big,baddie,meanie fellow I have always been. Tell them say I'm trying to force you to do something that you don't want for my own happiness. Whatever... I no longer care. Don't care if I die tomorrow or whatever. Whatever, I no longer give a damn.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Hi, research methods results came out in the afternoon (finally!!!). I'm glad to say I didn not fail and got a C. My Empress got an A. Trust me, I'm not talking to her liao ;p
I just heard that one of my friend, Jian Hao, confessed to his mother that he is a christian. Naturally, his mother was very unhappy. Though he didn't say that he was sad, I know how he feels. The only difference is that I lack the courage to say. I know my mother. If she just chase me out of the house, that's consider light. For heavy penalty, link these words together.
Anger-> Knife-> Casket-> Heaven.
Sometimes, I just don't understand where the whole problem lies. Why can't they accept? Since young, I knew... I knew I didn't belong in the temple. My whole life, I've long to enter the church. My first time was when my (one and only christian) uncle got married. After that time, the only church I went to was the Nativity church near my sec school. Over time in poly, I sneaked into New Creation Church a couple of times, and that's all. I have never felt any "feeling/s" in the temple but the church is so different. How nice if I was born into a christian family. One who is born into a christian family will never understand. Never.
Maybe one day, I may gather the courage. Maybe one day, when I am finally independent, I will say. Then, I will not need to worry about anything. But deep inside, I have a wish... only God knows and I know. And that may be the real reason why I have not said...
Father, I have not forgotten the dream you blessed me with that night. When the time finally arrives, we will all kneel infront of you and tears of gratitude and happiness will be shed, our hearts soaring and filled with longing...for that day will come, in your time. Amen.
I just heard that one of my friend, Jian Hao, confessed to his mother that he is a christian. Naturally, his mother was very unhappy. Though he didn't say that he was sad, I know how he feels. The only difference is that I lack the courage to say. I know my mother. If she just chase me out of the house, that's consider light. For heavy penalty, link these words together.
Anger-> Knife-> Casket-> Heaven.
Sometimes, I just don't understand where the whole problem lies. Why can't they accept? Since young, I knew... I knew I didn't belong in the temple. My whole life, I've long to enter the church. My first time was when my (one and only christian) uncle got married. After that time, the only church I went to was the Nativity church near my sec school. Over time in poly, I sneaked into New Creation Church a couple of times, and that's all. I have never felt any "feeling/s" in the temple but the church is so different. How nice if I was born into a christian family. One who is born into a christian family will never understand. Never.
Maybe one day, I may gather the courage. Maybe one day, when I am finally independent, I will say. Then, I will not need to worry about anything. But deep inside, I have a wish... only God knows and I know. And that may be the real reason why I have not said...
Father, I have not forgotten the dream you blessed me with that night. When the time finally arrives, we will all kneel infront of you and tears of gratitude and happiness will be shed, our hearts soaring and filled with longing...for that day will come, in your time. Amen.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
19/10
Exams are coming but I just don't seem to be studying so much...what a naughty girl right?!
Anyway, BCLS theory test results came out, and I passed. Finished my BCLS practical yesterday and I passed too. Thank God. Hurt my little finger and my knees are like aching from all that "Re-sus". Research method presentation is over for me too, so, I am kinda free. Yeah :)
Did a debate last week, and it was kinda terrifying but then, got over it. Oh yes, got the best speaker award in my grp.
Better go now. See you laterz.
Anyway, BCLS theory test results came out, and I passed. Finished my BCLS practical yesterday and I passed too. Thank God. Hurt my little finger and my knees are like aching from all that "Re-sus". Research method presentation is over for me too, so, I am kinda free. Yeah :)
Did a debate last week, and it was kinda terrifying but then, got over it. Oh yes, got the best speaker award in my grp.
Better go now. See you laterz.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Another Day
I just went and take a look at my bio practical and I got a C. 60-65%. Not too bad for someone who studied last minute actually maybe didn't even study much. Oh well, thank God I passed...so afraid I will fail... Sarah happy lor...Got B+ :p. Hope I can pass my few other papers...
Thursday, October 06, 2005
~5/10/2005 - 6/10/2005~
Left quite sudden the last time didn't I? Coz must rush for lecture. Well, glad to say everyone pass their second attempt for those who must retake. Went specially back to school for moral support for those retaking. Must have been out of my mind.
Anyway, I really can't stand someone now....to the extend where I don't even want to talk to her anymore. Not even a glance. It's a long story...really long. But no choice, she just refuses to join someone else. Haiz. Don't want to talk...later at night sleep also dream about her *yucks*
Yesterday, went to seoul garden with char, yung hwui, sarah, yi wei, wang qiong and jian hao. Never realized how "naughty" yiwei can be until yesterday. And poor jian hao, let us "bully" until...haiz...
Got a debate and research methods ICA next week, BCLS theory and practical next week monday... wonder when the holidays are coming...
Anyway, I really can't stand someone now....to the extend where I don't even want to talk to her anymore. Not even a glance. It's a long story...really long. But no choice, she just refuses to join someone else. Haiz. Don't want to talk...later at night sleep also dream about her *yucks*
Yesterday, went to seoul garden with char, yung hwui, sarah, yi wei, wang qiong and jian hao. Never realized how "naughty" yiwei can be until yesterday. And poor jian hao, let us "bully" until...haiz...
Got a debate and research methods ICA next week, BCLS theory and practical next week monday... wonder when the holidays are coming...
Monday, October 03, 2005
Re~Lax
Yoz, I finish my assessment for my clinical on Friday. Thank God I passed and thank God I got SC Insulin and IV INFUSION PUMP. Easy man. Was so worried that I would get assessment for lungs and thorax. Got to get going for lecture now. Bye~
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Tired man...
Yoz...Me.
Tired man. Tuesday, finished my Med-Surgical presentation. Yesterday, I sat for 2 tests. My Bio practical and clinical theory. Tomorrow, I got another 2 tests. Research methods and my clinical practical. It's driving me crazy. Haiz. All the test all cramp in one week, I think I'm going to faint liao. Tomorrow if I fail my clinical practical, I think I better die. Oh man, hate tests. Now, I don't know what's better. Hospital or school. In my opinion, I think holiday is the best.
Later still got Lab, and I haven't study my research and my Lungs and thorax assessment is gone case... God bless me...
Tired man. Tuesday, finished my Med-Surgical presentation. Yesterday, I sat for 2 tests. My Bio practical and clinical theory. Tomorrow, I got another 2 tests. Research methods and my clinical practical. It's driving me crazy. Haiz. All the test all cramp in one week, I think I'm going to faint liao. Tomorrow if I fail my clinical practical, I think I better die. Oh man, hate tests. Now, I don't know what's better. Hospital or school. In my opinion, I think holiday is the best.
Later still got Lab, and I haven't study my research and my Lungs and thorax assessment is gone case... God bless me...
Monday, August 08, 2005
One fine Sunday....
One fine sunday, I went to suntec city with my family and we ate at Pearl River Palace. The food there was marvellous. But it was really expensive. Nevertheless, we had a good time. While on the way to Carrefour, we stop by Courts. And just there, I saw sarah. After a quick hi-bye, we left. After shopping around, my brother made a fuss and said that he wanted to go and watch "Charlie and the Chocolate factory". So we went up to the 3rd floor and just there, I asw charmaine and her mum. After another quick hi-bye, we parted. After enquiring on the seats, we decided to watch on tuesday.
We finally carried on with our shopping in Carrefour. Mum bought something from OTO. Then while hanging around the VCDs area, We met my aunty. After some chit-chatting, we parted. After shopping, we went to OG that is near sim-lim square, and shop there. After shopping, we left for my grandmother house.
In conclusion, that was what happened in my own one fine sunday.
(Dear teacher, pls give me high marks coz I try my beary best liao. thank you ;)
We finally carried on with our shopping in Carrefour. Mum bought something from OTO. Then while hanging around the VCDs area, We met my aunty. After some chit-chatting, we parted. After shopping, we went to OG that is near sim-lim square, and shop there. After shopping, we left for my grandmother house.
In conclusion, that was what happened in my own one fine sunday.
(Dear teacher, pls give me high marks coz I try my beary best liao. thank you ;)
Friday, July 29, 2005
A little report on my horoscope...
Capricorn, the tenth Sign of the Zodiac, is all about hard work. Those born under this Sign are more than happy to put in night after night of full-time studying, realizing that it will likely take a lot of those days to get straight A's. That's no problem, since Capricorns are both ambitious and determined: they will get there. Life is one big project for these folks, and they adapt to this by adopting a businesslike approach to most everything they do. Capricorns are practical as well, taking things one step at a time and being as realistic and pragmatic as possible. The Capricorn-born are extremely dedicated to their goals, almost to the point of stubbornness. Boy, those victories sure smell sweet, though, and that thought alone will keep Capricorns going.
It's the Goat which symbolizes Capricorns, and an apt mascot it is. Goats love to climb to the top of the mountain, where the air is clear and fresh. In much the same way, Capricorns want to get to the top of their chosen field so that they can reap the benefits of success; namely fame, prestige and money. Getting to the top isn't always a walk in the park, however, so it's likely that Goats will ruffle a few feathers along the way. These folks can indeed be domineering, even egotistical, on their route to the top. They'll tell you it's part of being a leader with bright new ideas (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Capricorns are industrious, efficient, organized and won't make a lot of waves. They are scrupulous with details and adopt a rather conventional posture in business and in life. These folks feel best playing it safe, since this is a fail-safe way to get to the top--eventually. Thankfully, Capricorns are patient, too, and are happy to wait for their ship to come in. The flip side to this staid behavior is that Goats can become quite unforgiving of those who aren't as diligent or ambitious as they are. Capricorns need to remember that they do need allies along the way, ambitious or otherwise. In any case, once Capricorns receive the recognition and social status they so fervently crave, it's likely that all will be forgiven.
Capricorn is ruled by the Planet Saturn. In ancient Roman mythology, Saturn was the father of many of the gods. Consider him top dog, if you will, and then you'll see a parallel to Capricorns. Those born under this Sign also want to be the top dog, and they're smart enough to know that the title won't simply be handed to them. Caps are happy to work for it, and luckily they possess enough discipline and sense of responsibility to get them there. Capricorns tend to be mature and are amply blessed with common sense, two more qualities which help their success-driven endeavors. With any kind of luck (make that considerable work), Caps will find themselves on that top step, but they should also remember those who have helped them on their quest. They are traditional (but not quite the button-down stiffs some would suggest) and somewhat inhibited, prompting others to wonder if they can ever enjoy success and its rarefied air. Rest assured, these folks will be smiling inside.
The Element associated with Capricorn is Earth. There's no surprise there! Caps aren't interested in wild ideas or round-the-world dreams. They would much rather stay put and get to work. Remember, these are the businesspeople of the Zodiac, so in their sensible and economical way, they'll get up every morning and see to it that their job is well done. While Caps can occasionally get a bit materialistic and greedy (hey, everyone needs a few perks), they are far too dignified and practical to get carried away. Plus, they love tradition and reserve and want to appear polite and friendly.
Capricorns at rest (yes, there is such a thing) enjoy leisurely sports such as golf and croquet--so long as they have a chance to win! Playing with a crew is also nice, since it brings to mind their beloved workplace. Team colors for a Capricorn are likely to be earthy brown and khaki, much like the relaxed slacks they like to wear. Sports-bound Caps also need to watch their teeth and knees, and they shouldn't be too daring, lest they break some bones. When it comes to love, Capricorns are ever devoted and never emotive.
The great strengths of the Capricorn-born are their willingness to work hard and their determination to succeed. Their ambition is boundless, yet they are cautious, responsible and always play fair. That's why their successes are all the more sweet.
Think you see that in me??Hmm...
My love colour quiz...
If love were Chinese food, your fortune cookie might say, "No need to look for happiness. It's right there next to you." Storge (which comes from the Greek word for family) love is characterized by familiarity and affection. According to John Allan Lee, yellow types would be happy to have a solid, supportive relationship and value this far more than physical or emotional intensity. Yellow types often find themselves falling in love with a best friend or a family friend without realizing it. Has love ever snuck up on you? Keep an eye out for Cupid, he's likely to get you when and where you least expect it. Yellow roses symbolize friendship, so who knows, if you look out the window, you might have a garden-full of them in you and your beloved's shared backyard.
Haha, think so??
Capricorn, the tenth Sign of the Zodiac, is all about hard work. Those born under this Sign are more than happy to put in night after night of full-time studying, realizing that it will likely take a lot of those days to get straight A's. That's no problem, since Capricorns are both ambitious and determined: they will get there. Life is one big project for these folks, and they adapt to this by adopting a businesslike approach to most everything they do. Capricorns are practical as well, taking things one step at a time and being as realistic and pragmatic as possible. The Capricorn-born are extremely dedicated to their goals, almost to the point of stubbornness. Boy, those victories sure smell sweet, though, and that thought alone will keep Capricorns going.
It's the Goat which symbolizes Capricorns, and an apt mascot it is. Goats love to climb to the top of the mountain, where the air is clear and fresh. In much the same way, Capricorns want to get to the top of their chosen field so that they can reap the benefits of success; namely fame, prestige and money. Getting to the top isn't always a walk in the park, however, so it's likely that Goats will ruffle a few feathers along the way. These folks can indeed be domineering, even egotistical, on their route to the top. They'll tell you it's part of being a leader with bright new ideas (in keeping with the Cardinal Quality assigned to this Sign). Capricorns are industrious, efficient, organized and won't make a lot of waves. They are scrupulous with details and adopt a rather conventional posture in business and in life. These folks feel best playing it safe, since this is a fail-safe way to get to the top--eventually. Thankfully, Capricorns are patient, too, and are happy to wait for their ship to come in. The flip side to this staid behavior is that Goats can become quite unforgiving of those who aren't as diligent or ambitious as they are. Capricorns need to remember that they do need allies along the way, ambitious or otherwise. In any case, once Capricorns receive the recognition and social status they so fervently crave, it's likely that all will be forgiven.
Capricorn is ruled by the Planet Saturn. In ancient Roman mythology, Saturn was the father of many of the gods. Consider him top dog, if you will, and then you'll see a parallel to Capricorns. Those born under this Sign also want to be the top dog, and they're smart enough to know that the title won't simply be handed to them. Caps are happy to work for it, and luckily they possess enough discipline and sense of responsibility to get them there. Capricorns tend to be mature and are amply blessed with common sense, two more qualities which help their success-driven endeavors. With any kind of luck (make that considerable work), Caps will find themselves on that top step, but they should also remember those who have helped them on their quest. They are traditional (but not quite the button-down stiffs some would suggest) and somewhat inhibited, prompting others to wonder if they can ever enjoy success and its rarefied air. Rest assured, these folks will be smiling inside.
The Element associated with Capricorn is Earth. There's no surprise there! Caps aren't interested in wild ideas or round-the-world dreams. They would much rather stay put and get to work. Remember, these are the businesspeople of the Zodiac, so in their sensible and economical way, they'll get up every morning and see to it that their job is well done. While Caps can occasionally get a bit materialistic and greedy (hey, everyone needs a few perks), they are far too dignified and practical to get carried away. Plus, they love tradition and reserve and want to appear polite and friendly.
Capricorns at rest (yes, there is such a thing) enjoy leisurely sports such as golf and croquet--so long as they have a chance to win! Playing with a crew is also nice, since it brings to mind their beloved workplace. Team colors for a Capricorn are likely to be earthy brown and khaki, much like the relaxed slacks they like to wear. Sports-bound Caps also need to watch their teeth and knees, and they shouldn't be too daring, lest they break some bones. When it comes to love, Capricorns are ever devoted and never emotive.
The great strengths of the Capricorn-born are their willingness to work hard and their determination to succeed. Their ambition is boundless, yet they are cautious, responsible and always play fair. That's why their successes are all the more sweet.
Think you see that in me??Hmm...
My love colour quiz...
If love were Chinese food, your fortune cookie might say, "No need to look for happiness. It's right there next to you." Storge (which comes from the Greek word for family) love is characterized by familiarity and affection. According to John Allan Lee, yellow types would be happy to have a solid, supportive relationship and value this far more than physical or emotional intensity. Yellow types often find themselves falling in love with a best friend or a family friend without realizing it. Has love ever snuck up on you? Keep an eye out for Cupid, he's likely to get you when and where you least expect it. Yellow roses symbolize friendship, so who knows, if you look out the window, you might have a garden-full of them in you and your beloved's shared backyard.
Haha, think so??
Thursday, July 21, 2005
I shouted....
Yozzy, It's me me.
Here in E-plaza waiting for sarah to finish her thingy. Really dilly-dally.
Boring friday tml. Need to come to school early at 11am and then study until 8pm. No fair. I'm suppose to be out having fun instead of staying in school from 6-8pm with a teacher that hardly knows his work. Frankly speaking, base on the way he teach, I can take over his job too.
Project work keeping coming like crazy. 4 groups, 5 groups then now 8 groups. Crazy man. Wonder if the teacher have any work to do. I think, they think that we students have about 48hours each day. And they also think that we are the "worms in their stomach" and that we are suppose to know perfectly well what they want. Really hate it when people explain half and then leave the next half for you to guess. Maybe they should retake 1026 on effective communications.
It's 5:13pm now. Time to get going. Got to get sarah off her butt and start moving. See ya.
Here in E-plaza waiting for sarah to finish her thingy. Really dilly-dally.
Boring friday tml. Need to come to school early at 11am and then study until 8pm. No fair. I'm suppose to be out having fun instead of staying in school from 6-8pm with a teacher that hardly knows his work. Frankly speaking, base on the way he teach, I can take over his job too.
Project work keeping coming like crazy. 4 groups, 5 groups then now 8 groups. Crazy man. Wonder if the teacher have any work to do. I think, they think that we students have about 48hours each day. And they also think that we are the "worms in their stomach" and that we are suppose to know perfectly well what they want. Really hate it when people explain half and then leave the next half for you to guess. Maybe they should retake 1026 on effective communications.
It's 5:13pm now. Time to get going. Got to get sarah off her butt and start moving. See ya.
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